Oh, I never knew this day would hurt so bad. :'(

I cannot believe that you are going off on your own. Nor that you are leaving this town to pursue your wildest dream... What I really cannot grasp is how you made me so many promises and now they are being broken one by one.... I guess you don't get it... I was there for your very first day of high school & through anything that you needed me for..... I was even there for your high school graduation... I dressed with  only intentions of you being the one to look at me (which you didn't) Everyone in that room got to wrap their arms around you and say "congratulations"... I hung my head, turned and walked out because I knew hugs or contact of any type, are "against the rules"..... So, this is what I will say it, I know you will probably NEVER come across this.... You don't call, look, or anything like that anymore.. So I guess this is your way of letting me know to let go & maybe move on... But if this is one of those times that you wait until I start going out then you start acting like you want me again... I have absolutely no clue what I will do when I look into your beautiful green eyes, nor do I know what I will say..... All I can ever seem to say is "I love you..."

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Is'nt he hunkyy!!!! I want him to come home with me Ohhhh so bad!!

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Today I cannot stand any of the people around me.... For the sake of privacy I'll rename all those who are really getting to me..... First off... On the top of the list would Aaron is as usual LOUD & Annoying.... I would love to rip out his vocal chords and throw them into a boiling pot of chili :D His friend Abraham and his partner Cala bug me too. They fight then 5 seconds later are on top of each other basically making out in class in front of everybody.... UGGGHG!!! Warner on the other hand is by far the worse person in my school!!! I thought he could handle leaving me alone... Nope..... HE APPARENTLY CANNOT DO THAT! He has a problem with listening in on my conversations with Helga.... Now he is walking around out side of my class room door with Lani trying sooo hard to get my attention... Welp, I am NOT giving it to him!! I hate his guts and hope the next time he goes to light his cigarette the lighter bows up in his big ugly meaty hands :D There are no words in the English language that could describe how much I actually loath him....... BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I hope he moves or transfers! He makes me want to vomit!

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♪Underwater♪ Listen & Enjoy ;)

I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the stars that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
so like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently, before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room
Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time.
Can you believe that the crew has gone and they wouldn’t let me sign on
All my islands have sunk in the deep, and I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if i were home, some nights, when we kill count all the shiplights
I guess we'll never know why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn out all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time.
Time together is just never quite enough

When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
Only time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time.
Time together is just never quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time.

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The Saltwater Room

;) Listen & Enjoy

I can finally see that You're right there beside me
I am not my own, for I have been made new
Please don't let me go I desperately need You

I am not my own, for I have been made new
Please don't let me go I desperately need You

Meteor Shower

Happy "almost" Mothers Day ♥

Well, Momma.... I have my dress picked out and I'm ready to go. I promise to give you a day with out fights and trouble. A day where everything revolves around you. Since your request was that we "dress" up and look really nice, I picked out a beautiful dress & shoes for specifically that.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMY!

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Someone Very Smart & Special ♥

It could not have been more of sensible moment for my best friend to play this song last night. However, it made so much sense. We had just finished having a discussion about our love lives and other things of the sort. I must admit that I had been a tag emotional. When this song came on it caused me think hard about the current situations in my life. But, even though it would be so much easier to, I know I cannot "runaway."

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Priceless ♥

Sometimes I feel cheesy when I think of the joy of "pregnancy." The truth is though, this experience is completely priceless. I just love this picture, but I do not know why. Maybe because there are some women out there who are able to enjoy something that others may not be cut out for.... Those may include those who give up, distroy, and neglect this beautiful opportunity. To those who choose abortion, let me just say there are other options. For example give that precious gift to someone who wants it, can care for it, and will not distroy it like you plan to do. Most people cal this "Adoption." It is possible and it works better than you can imagine. Right now, I know it feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders.... But please, do not take it out on the unborn person who had nothing in it. If it is too much of a problem, then next time..... USE PROTECTION..... Then you won't be in the situation that you are currently in. I would also like to address thos who decide to keep that baby inside them, yet torture them with illegall substances, cigarettes, and alcohol. Seriously, what did they ever do to you? Yes, your mommy who smoked with you said "it's okay..." Really? It's not! So the next "smoke" you go to light up.... rethink it.... It would save your life, and your babies.

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Moms in training

Currently in Child Care & Parenting, all of us are pregnant and obviously almost there. We have a few more days to go. Today we hired a "photographer" to come do a photo shoot of all of us. Thank you Nikki Ackerman! Recently I started feeliing contractions (Braxton Hicks). I possibly could be entering the early stage of labor. Both of the other mothers are having the same symptoms, all we do is eat, sleep and nag. :P Lol Good luck to my partners in parenting Tavia and Laura! Cannot wait to see your beautiful newborns.
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One of my favorite websites :D

http://www.babycenter.com/pregnancy

I go here to get all of my information. It answers all of my questions and makes tracking my "pregnancy" extrememly easy!

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Hair! ;)

This is how I mught want my hair cut... But colored chocolate

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Child Care & Parenting

So, I have been trying to figure out how to add links to my side bar and I just cannot seem to get it! :o Currently I am also annoyed by the many approaches I have taken to work on it. But nothing seems to be working out with it. So I gave up (temporarily) and I will just post what I wanted in a post. Any whoser.... I had been in a really great mood (considering the idiots I put up with) for the last few days... That is.... untill yesterday. I had been planning on something really fun with my friends this weekend, everything was going great then I got a text saying that it was not going to be able to happen. Seriously, tht is not what I needed right now. But I will say that I do not care (LIE) "I only smile to hold back the tears" Instead I will be going to my cousin Sarah's baby shower (it's a boy) at least I will have something to do rather than sit around alone. :) Maybe after that I will stay with my sister. I know it seems as if I am just rambling on right now, therefore..... I will sign off ;) So I will write moere at home.
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Help!!!! :o

So, lately life has been a little "messy" for me and those around me. People I know just cannot seem to get away or keep there nose out of other's buisness. Most  people in this town cannot even handle their own lives, therefore the feel the need to get into their neighbor's problems or life. It is incredibly frustrating to sit in my house and over hear the people of town standing outside of my living room window and talk about me and my family. It just amazes me to no end! Uggg!! :-( I want to get in their faces and scream extremely loud. Of course I would never do anything of the sort. Any whoser.... I have major plans for this weekend and I cannot wait untill Saturday :D Well, hopefully it goes as planned. If not, it will deffinately drive me crazy. But now the announcements are on, so I must log off of my computer... Drats :P